you know what? I really really really want to quit music now. After a horrible violin lesson, I have now no more confidence. Why is it that I play so differently infront of my teacher? Am I scared? No! Why I is that my notes get out of tune everytime? Did I not practise those parts hard enough? No! I mean, I don't think so. It's just so different! While I was going through Mendelssohn today, arghhhh. I just wanted to quit violin. Just so sudden. I can't play the first part of Mendelssohn! Maybe I'm not used to practising in living rooms. So now, I shall practise in te living room and on my aircon and stand up throughout. I really hope there'll be an improvement on monday. I'm sure it's just psycology.. I hope.
Now, I'll stop talking about music. How about school? Hee. I no longer owe my math teacher anymore homework! And yesterday, I went home halfway during chinese lesson cause I was down with a flu. So cool! And yeah, I have a new phone!! Yayy. Ohyeah, maybe my horrible playing was due to my flu? :( Tomorrow's school will be horrible. Tests and homework, stress!
Let's move on to strings. Yesterday, there was an election for a new string commitee. Well, I've been given the responsibility of the president of strings. Is it a good thing or not? I'm just soso worried that I'll let strings down! I really want to make a difference. But how?
Sometimes, I wish I could end my life like how people in the dystopic society do. But no, I'll face every problem, every challenge and conquer my fears. And God will be with me, throughout this journey. (:
jumped at : 5:57 PM
hey diddle diddle
Hey diddle diddle,
The cat and the fiddle,
The cow jumped over the moon.
The little dog laughed to see such fun,
And the dish ran away with the spoon.