Saturday, September 27, 2008
Monday, September 22, 2008
I actually went to school today!! Today wasn't that bad.. the weather was good and that's an important factor!! End of years are coming... I don't think I'm prepared at all!! Just can't believe that my exams are coming! As long as I get promoted to sec 4, I think I'll be happy enough! Hee. Really hope I'll be able to take the stress! (: Just 3 weeks less till temporary freedom!!! YAY!
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Sunday, September 21, 2008
Yet again, I've failed. It's quite expected anyway. I already knew that no matter how well I play, they will mark me down for cutting sections of my piece. First, they penalized me for playing overtime, now they penalize me for avioding playing over time. This is stupid. I heard, that failure brings you a step closer to success. But I guess I have to go through the world's longest staircase to achieve success. Unless a miracle happens and I find a escalater. Of course I'm not upset about this tie's failure but I'm definitely still upset about last week's disappointment. This year I the worst year of my life. Last year too. And maybe next year too. First, I failed in music and now I'm going to fail in studies. Anyway, I shall try my best for I know, I will keep failing and failing.
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Tuesday, September 16, 2008
Although I still can't accept the fact that life is unfair, I'm feeling alot better now cause I finally realise why I didn't get in the finals and I also know of someone who is also experiencing the same problem as me. So, why didn't I get in the finals? Well, it's simply because my piece was too long. So they deducted my marks. Isn't that nice?
I don't really feel like posting now. Feeling very... bothered.
jumped at : 7:29 PM
Sunday, September 14, 2008
I don't want to live anymore. and I have a perfectly good reason for wanting to die. I DIDN'T GET IN THE FINALS. Isn't that great? Fantastic? Wonderful? Now I am proud to say that I'm a perfect failure. Failure in music, failure in studies or basically a failure in everything I do. What went wrong today? I gave my note perfection, my musicality and my best. And yet, everyone else in the world got in except me. If it's the piece that they don't like, then this is just too unfair. I do know already the number of people who hates the piece I play but do I care? I like it and that's my own problem. Music is free everyone should be open minded about different pieces. Just stop being so biased and soooo unfair!!! Where's my justice? Just because my piece is not well liked doesn't mean that the performer is a bad musician. I don't get it. LIfe is unfair. My mom tells me that very often. Life is UNFAIRUNFAIRUNFAIR. What's unfair? And that's LIFE. L. I. F. E. LIFE. If I played badly today, I wouldn't be too upset but you know what? I don't even think I played badly! Everyone was saying that I played very well however, I don't think I can trust anymore comments for the rest of my life. From now on, if someone says I'm smart, it means that I'm stupid. So it applies here. Everyone said I played well. Sooo.. I played badly! It's as simple as that! Well, since everyone has been saying that I play well since my very first performance, it just simply means that I have been playing very badly. Why can't people just tell me that I played badly instead of being sarcastic? It really makes me feel like saying that everyone is a liar but I can't say that right? So it means that my ears have a big problem. I don't want to live anymore. Life is unfair and it's going to get more unfair. If it wasn't for my mom, I think my legs will still be hanging out of the window. Thanks to my new badroom design.
I'll never ever ever understand why I didn't get in to the finals. But for now, it only proves that I'm the louiest person in the whole world!
Yay!
Thank you!
jumped at : 1:19 PM
Saturday, September 13, 2008
Friday, September 12, 2008
HEEE. I didn't go to school today!! Why? Simply because I need to stay at home and seriously study amath. Well, my other reasons are that I am mentally and physically not very well. Adding on, I woke up finding my lips numb and swollen. Isn't that interesting? I did spend my morning and afternoon going through amath. But of course, I was very distracted at times. Kept falling asleep and practising piano when I got bored. That's how I spent my day. (: Anyway, I think life in school is happier without me. Bet my classmates know what I mean! They can break all the school rules they want without being caught! How fun is that! School's always better when I'm not around.
jumped at : 5:24 PM
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Hi. I'm tired. Physics SPA is over!!! Yayyyy! School passed quite quickily today, which is a good thing.
Tired
Tired
I was sooo tired that I played Beethoven sonata in E flat major in E major.
Schools tomorrow!! And terrible english oral.
Can't wait for tomorrow to be over!!
I really need to start practising piano seriously too. ):
jumped at : 10:13 PM
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
OHNO!!! Physics SPA tomorrow!!! I think I'm going to faint while doing the experiment. Let's see... didn't go to school today! Thanks to ze's viola exam. Spent my day rehearsing with ze, studying.. went for piano lesson too. Well. That's about all. Basically, I'm posting because I'm feeling very packed. My dad says he's going to move my bed out of my bedroom. I think it'll be better that way too.
I've nothing to post about. Going back to work now. ):
And physics spa tomorrow!!!
jumped at : 7:50 PM
Monday, September 8, 2008
Sigh. School starts again! Missed my o'levels physics spa because of tham huiyu!! Had to be her accompanist for her voice exam. Therefore I'll be taking my spa on wednesday. Hearing from my classmates, it seems like it's a tough one!! Anyway, I got to leave school earlier! (: Chinese oral was terrible. Really really terrible. But violin lesson after that was long... 1 and a half hours. It was long for me since I was really tired. Heh. I played bach chromatic fantasie and fugue for my teacher today!! She requested for it. Hee. Still made a few mistakes though, not used to the piano! Basically, there's lots of polishing to do for mendelssohn. So I guess next sunday's finals will just be a chance for me to have some exposure!! My aim is to just make sure I don't embarrass myself. Also, this would be the last violin competition I'm joining!! I'm too lousy to join anymore competitions. Unless a miracle happens and... yeah. Just pray that God will give me the strength this 2 weeks to manage my time and more importantly do what's right and never forget to praise Him and thank Him for his grace to me. (: 
The 4 of us! Christie, Yushi, Chrstine and me!! We were watching the music with friends video. I think we were watching our own trio. Hehhh. 
Had a great time. (:
jumped at : 10:29 PM
Sunday, September 7, 2008
Hi. I just got woken up by ze's call. Seems like she's back from a fairytale lifestyle while I have been hmmm.... suffering? Heh. Today was a.. very messy day for me. But yesterday was really fun!!
Yesterday after half studying half practising, I went to my piano teachers house for a party!! Met up with Christine, Christie and Yushi to swim then had a cosy dinner. Reached home at 10.3 0 and slept immediately. Heeee.
Woke up at 8am. Rushed to pick my Aunt up then when to the competition area. At least they gave the competitors 10min to warm up first. (: Being the unlucky first competitor, I was mentally unprepared to play. Got up and played bach terribly and mendelssohn horribly too. Yup. Was chanting in my head "why am I playing so badly?" After me was a boy followed by 3 other competitors who were really really really impressive!!! I got out after the first half of the competition since I thought that there was no point watching the other competitors. Still feeling very dizzy after my disgusting playing, went to tcc with my mom for lunch. My mom was telling me that I will difinitely not get in and I was at the same time telling myself that too. Ohwell, I was quite happy when I assumed that I didn't get in! Can finally concentrate on my piano competition and my studies!! My mom was happy for me too and she brought my to Cnady Empire to buy some sweets to celebrate my failure! (:
Until, we decided to check out the results for fun, out of curiousity. Immediately when I saw my name, my mom and I screamed. Which followed by, I got scolded by my mom. First for wasting her money on the sweets and second for embarrassing myself. Besides her telling me how badly I played for the next hour, I was suffering from I don't know. Just felt very dizzy, troubled and worried. All the competitors from the first half and one competitor from the second half got in to the finals. So actually, getting in wasn't such a good thing after all. As I mentioned before, I'd rather not get in.
Sigh. Now I've got lots to do!
I changed my blogskin too!! I know, this blogskin doesn't fit me but it's cool!!
Somehow. (:
jumped at : 5:48 PM
Saturday, September 6, 2008
I'm rotting on my chair... worrying sooo much! For my fourth finger. It's definitely going to affect me tomorrow! This is badbadbad. VERYVERY BAD! I have a strong feeling that I'm going to anyhow play in pain tomorrow. Still, I can't believe I just played basketball again. I must be unconsciously stressed. Not for the competition! But I think for my studies? Or maybe both added up together. Well, I'm going to spend the rest of the day half practising half studying!
jumped at : 9:34 AM
Friday, September 5, 2008
HELLO!! I'm here to advertise for ze's and my blog!! We have a shared blog at http://upandownonthe.blogspot.com you can go there if you're bored! Cause there's nothing much over there for the moment! Anyway, my 4th finger is injured. ): I hope it'll get well REALLY soon!!! That's all for now, school's starting soon!
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Thursday, September 4, 2008
What a fun concert!!! I have to say that I really really enjoyed myself!! (: Everyone played really really well and I hope the audience enjoyed the concert too! Though I didn't play as well, I missed half a bar for the fugue and made 2 slips. And for the fantasie, I had to compose my own chord cause I actually forgot what chord it was! Besides, I really had fun and I guess I learned alot from this concert!!! And the coolest thing is that all the children (below 16) get to share the same dressing room. (: Which would be Chrsitie, YuShi, Christine and me! (:
Christine and Christie. (:
Christine and I. (: And obviously taken by Christie! 
Yu Shi and I!
And all the children below 16 plus Hui Qi!
This concert is truly, MUSIC WITH FRIENDS!!!
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HELLO!! EOYs have finally arrived! I have to say that the first 2 papers I took were quite... different from what I've expected. Heh. I've been studying alot these few days! Well at least as much as I can! Trying out different methods of studying... and so on! My simple expectation for my eoys is to be promoted to sec 4! And I bought a bottle of light sticks. So that I can wear one on my wrist to sleep every night! (:
That's milo. I got bored this morning.
He got bored accompanying me too!
I like this. It's so cool.
Reading my new scores? (:
Aww.. his reaction when I say "up"!
He looks strange here. He was suppose to play dead.
Ohyeah! That's ze and me! We went to botanical gardens on friday to study under a tree. (: But apperently, the number of ants there were much more than expected. We have been researching on ways to get rid of ants!
But we still managed to study.. under a tree!
That's not our tree. (:
Milo's left ear is folded!! Heee. 
He's lifting his paw up!! He's either thinking or trying to shake hands. 
Heee.
Chrstine! Yu Shi took it. 
Taken by yushi too!
Yup, the children!! (: (my piano teacher kindly treated us for breakfast/lunch) heeee!