the cow jumped over the moon

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

I can't believe it!! I'm going to be sec 4. ): Then I'm going to JC then uni then work and work then retire then die. This is just too fast!! I wish time walks or crawls. Let's see, there's still 1 month of holiday left. Should be going to Indonesia and Malaysia. And am I going to study? ): Practice? ): How miserable. There's nothing to be happy about besides the everyday thanksgiving part. Like being thankful that I'm alive, the sun's still there, my stomach is filled, I've water to drink, the moon wasn't eaten up, the stars didn't get tired of twinkling, milo's still barking, my house is still standing, Singapore is still a piece of land... well, all those. But there's nothing to be excited about. Normally, my holidays would be filled with concerts but this time, I've nothing. All the concerts were over. So... I normally spend my mornings practising, afternoon practising and trying to study, night, day dreaming and still trying to study. Apparently, my lifestyle's quite boring. Let's blame it on my parents. They give me all the freedom and tell me not to study that hard. How mean. And they're always not at home. ): And they don't scold me. ): Why can't they just force me to study or tell me that I need to be more hardworking? Instead of, "Don't study too hard! You're scaring me" or "Don't practise anymore! You might hurt your hand again." or "Why do you need to practice so hard?" I see other people's parents forcing their children or scolding their children but mine? I even asked my dad before, why didn't you force me to study or practice when I was young? His reply was, "I didn't want you to lose interest" He's not wrong but still... not totally right. My dad even asked me recently, "When was the last time I scolded you?" Sigh. I've been very troubled by this recently. It's like I feel that I've too much freedom to do whatever I want. It's normally what many teenages ask from their parents but to me, I think I've had enough.

jumped at : 8:42 PM